It was in December last year that I discovered a beautiful waterfall in Sheffield, the day before my departure from my beloved city to another town, in another land.
I remember how surprised I was to see the waterfall because I didn’t know that it was there, despite the fact that I lived in Sheffield for 11 years. It was well-hidden, and I discovered it by accident. We had a climbing good-buy party organised for my son and his friends at a small sport centre, and the waterfall was right next to it, in the area called Heeley, an area situated among numerous hills of the beautiful city of Sheffield, in the UK.
I made some pictures of me standing at the waterfall, because I could understand the significance of the moment: I was about to totally change my life, and for the better. A month ago I was offered an amazing job in a truly picturesque town in Friesland, in the north of the Netherlands. It involved moving with my son and my cat and starting a new life. And waterfall symbolised, of course, all that changes. I remember my feeling when I stood next to it: I was daring to radically change my life, and while I was, obviously terrified, I was also very excited. I could feel that the change would be good for me and my family, but as with all new changes, the feeling of fear is natural: what if it doesn’t work? Will I miss my old life and especially, my friends, and the comfort of knowing? Knowing that each day will bring, knowing your favourite cafes and places, knowing how your day will enfold, which brings a certain stability and security?
All these feelings were rushing through my mind, but I knew that I was making a right choice. Sometimes, radical solutions are needed to radically change one’s life. There are needed when there is stagnation on all levels, where nothing furthers and sometimes, it can result in not just a new job, or a new hobby, but even a new city, and a new land.
However, I noticed that many people are really afraid to make even small changes in their lives. I remember a friend who was once stuck in the same job for many years and when I asked why wouldn’t she change it since she was so obviously, unhappy, her reply was that she doesn’t like changes and is afraid of making them. The same job, or the same place of living, or even the same relationship even if very unhappy, provides the routine, and delusions our mind into a fake feeling of comfort and security. You might wake up each day feeling miserable, hating your job and your husband, but you are afraid to step out of the comfort zone of your own misery because of the fear of the unknown. What if I won’t have any money if I leave my husband? What if I won’t not find another job? What if I will never find another love and stay on my own?
What if…what if…
What ifs, I noticed, are the biggest stumbling blocks in our life, preventing us from achieving our full potential. And our potential lies in feeling happy and joyful and being grateful each day for the gifts the universe bestows on us when we feel happy, truly happy, and live a meaningful life.
A friend of mine left her husband two months ago, after a miserable relationship of fifteen years. She had no money, no job, living in a city where she knew no one. The husband emotionally abused her, was never present, was unfaithful, and can be referred to as a total despot. My friend was afraid to leave him because she didn’t have her own money, no job, and no place where to go.
But something happened that made her reach her break point. One day she just packed all her stuff and her two children and left, into real nowhere. She had nothing on her or with her, no money, no security, no place where to stay.
And you know what? The most amazing thing happened next. A long forgotten friend called her, and once she learned what had happened, invited her and her children to stay with her, in a house in the same city. Then her other friends called, offering her money. Another acquaintance transferred her money so that she can repair her car. All these things didn’t happen out of the blue, of course. It was a way of the universe to show her that she finally made the right choice, that she had to tap into her inner power and not be afraid of the unknown. Now it is up to her to recognise all these signs from the universe, and start working into reaching her full potential and build a happy life for herself and her children.
I was unhappy in Sheffield in the last couple of years, even if I truly loved the city and the comfort of knowing many places, and having beautiful friendships. But I knew that something had to change, and especially in my professional sphere, even if I worked already at three universities. But there was no stability anymore in the zero-contract reality built under the Tories, and I needed stability to be able to fully enjoy my teaching job, and liberate as a result the space for my other activities, such as creating, writing and working as a light worker.
But if I were afraid I would never make the changes I really needed. I would never follow the jobs ads, including in other countries, and apply for the wonderful job I have now. I am sure that some other, maybe even better candidates saw the ad, but didn’t apply, didn’t apply out of fear, of fear of the unknown. Moving into another country is one of the biggest leaps one can dare, but this is probably an extreme example, although I am not so sure.
One can start with smaller steps: today I will start looking for a possibility to retrain, today I will start learning a new language, today I will finally read a book in self-development, today I will summon my courage and start changing my life.
It all starts with desire, and not letting go of it. If it is a right desire, a right wish, then the universe will make it work, provided you listen to its signals, to its sometimes unusual manifestations of your wish. But if something feels right, something that you know will make you happy, then let go of that fear and walk into the next door to a happy and meaningful life.
Manifesting a life you truly wants starts with believing that you can change things in your life.